Yeah, few more days to common test. Sian. Still need to stay back after school somemore and in the hall do the test! Wah, scare sia. ;( Got to buck up. Lalala. Seriously, i felt that i am SENSITIVE, JEALOUSY AND AFRAID OF BEING ALONE.

Hais, it is a long story.
Sensitive ; Nowadays, Trilly had been with Jona. But it seem that Jona tell her lots of things, but she don't even tell me. I felt left out. But today, Trilly was okay. And also, i felt that i had been giving more than I received. Because of Jeff. Yeah, him. I fall for him more and more everyday. When he is someone, i am there for him. When he is sad, i cheer him up. But, I don't know how to explain. It seems that he doesn't even care, even though he know that i had beeen there for him. How I wish one day, he could make me a special girl in his heart, other than a siblings to him.

Jealously ; I know that Trilly had a lot of friends, but whenever she talk to someone else and leave me alone, i will felt left out. URGH. I HATE THIS. I DON'T WANT TO BE SUCH A JEALOUSY FRIEND. I DON'T WANT. SERIOUSLY, I DON'T WANT. BECAUSE I KNOW IF I DO, I WILL HAVE A LOT OF PROBLEMS.

Afraid of being alone ; I told Jeff that Trilly had been neglecting me nowadays, he said I still have him. But today he pangseh me. I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE BEEN ACTING UP LIKE THIS FEW DAYS. :( He pangseh me, other people pangseh. Seriously, what's the point of being like a true friend to me, when you guys are leaving me?

Hey people, you not me. You can't understand me, unless you have been in the same situation as me and also unless you are God. So, don't even say you understand, when you don't even know why I am like this. I have putting a smile infront of everyone, when they don't know there is sadness behind it. Just like now, I am smsing people, putting a smiley, trying to act like I am happy. But they don't even know that I am actually sad.

And also, today went to tuition. Because we have dinner at there what. Then I went late, so they are suppose to keep a packet of rice for me. What the. My close friend didn't even mention my name when they found out an extra packet of rice. Okay, when I found out, I was calm. But after I came home, I realized that it is actually hurted me. Letting me know that I have no true friend at all. Yeah, people being there for me, no matter what happend. But that isn't true friend.

Hais, this was happend to me this fews days. And I felt this way. I want a person who really know what is happening inside of me and God know all these that are happening inside me. I love God. Satan, don't ever think of taking of my dear God Father away from me. :D